2nd Post

Spiritual Lessons for today

Silence in prayer.
I've been asking the Lord for many things in my life, the big thing, the small things, but there seems to be silence when I ask for the big things. The Lord answers my prayers at times, and at other times, there's silence. Lord are you there? Silence - that is God's answer.

"Silence is the sign that He is bringing you into a marvellous understanding of Himself. Are you mourning before God because you have not had an audible response? You will find that God has trusted you in the most intimate way possible, with an absolute silence, not of despair, but of pleasure, because He saw that you could stand a bigger revelation. If God has given you a silence, praise Him, He is bringing you into the great run of His purposes. The manifestation of the answer in time is a matter of God's sovereignty. Time is nothing to God. For a while you said - "I asked God to give me bread, and He gave me a stone." He did not, and to-day you find He gave you the bread of life. " (From Osward Chambers "My Utmost for His Highest", a very useful devotional that I have started using)

The spiritual habits of prayer and reading the scriptures

It has gotten dry, routine, monotonous and numb. Reading the scriptures have never seem so numb before, it seems that I am reading the stories over and over again, but no insights, no feelings, nothing at all. When I go to the Lord in prayer, my mind drifts away in a minute or two into the things of the world, then I persevere in prayer again and then my mind drifts away again. And it feels like I am conversing as though there is no God.

Have I made the daily spiritual exercise a habit that I worship? I found that I have been doing it because everyone else is doing it, or I do it because it is the duty of a Christian. For such wrong reasons, it has become a burden.
I know if I am really doing it for the Lord it will not be burdensome, or perhaps, it is a battle against Satan to do it everyday, a battle against the flesh. I am unable to love the Lord so much as to do it and not secretly feel upset that I have not gained anything from it. Let me remind myself that my daily devotions it not for me to gain something for the flesh (e.g. Feeling good, feeling happy).
For me, it is to let go of all the thoughts of the world, its problems and go to God in my closet, when no one is looking, no one is judging, and go to Him who understands all things. If my heart wants to praise Him, I praise Him, if I am troubled, I tell Him my troubles. I have mixed up feeling the pressure to share in group devotions and have brought this pressure into my personal devotions. I remind myself, you don’t have to share what others want to hear, you don’t have to look at scriptures and explain them the way others want to gain from you, the Lord knows all things, sees all things, to the deepest thoughts of the soul, just go to the Lord in silence, and there I will find peace.

1st Post

I've decided to create a new blog, apart from my previous blog for this purpose -

1. To keep it as a journal with accounts of my daily journeys (if any) with regards to spiritual and temporal things.

2. It is worthwhile to jot down these experiences throughout my time over here because I cannot have such experiences anywhere else.

3. My current blog (in livejournal) is written to suit more of a wider audience - anyone, people of the family of Christ and unbelievers.

4. I type much faster than writing on paper.